The End of 2011

Wow, this year has definitely been an experience for me. It has allowed me to learn some very interesting things, discover more about my Creator and fall more deeply in love with Him, as well as learning how to navigate through this journey called life.

I learned a very difficult lesson in trust and faith in the Lord when I wasn't sure what school I was going to in the fall, and He worked it all out! He provided a transfer application 2 months after the process had closed and people had already been accepted. I was accepted after a few weeks of waiting and wondering. Then the Lord provided finances where there were NONE to be had, from random places, in JUST the amount needed. God is so good to me.

My relationship with Him this year has grown, and I'm sad to say it has also grown more comfortable. Living at school, away from my family and friends, has tested me and forced me to rely on my closest Friend and Family. Living in a Christian environment has really caused me to become almost complacent. Our relationship has been so easy this semester, kinda like living with my sisters...we get along well, talk often, love each other, but there's no active "getting to know each other". Not that every moment of every day has to be a sort of honeymoon stage with the Lord, it's good to have these times of calm. It's just that I miss the passionate romance stage as well.

That's my goal for 2012. A simple one, it's true. I don't ever really do New Years resolutions or anything, because I'm afraid of breaking them haha, but I really do want to accomplish something in my relationship with Jesus this next year. I want there to be a constant growth. He already is my best friend, but I want to perpetually be keeping in my mind the fact that He is also the Lover of my soul. I just want to fall deeper in love with Him each and every day. I want His Word to be the highlight of my day, the reason I wake up. I'm worried though that this new semester will be much tougher on me as well, and I don't want to just be running to Him because I'm in a time of difficulty. I want this active relationship to be the center of my life. I'm so excited for this New Year! :D

Happy New Year 2012! May you also draw nearer to the Creator of the universe, the Alpha and the Omega, the Author of your life, the Prince of Peace, the King of Kings and Lord of Lords, the Almighty and Everlasting Father! May your relationship with Him be new and renewed every day of this year! God bless!

Nostalgia

Its that time of year again!

Back to school!

You know when you've hit it because Staples has everything on sale. Target starts advertising "back to school clothes"...in July. Kids start getting loopy and giddy with joy over back to school shopping. Summer romances start coming to a winding halt. People begin to *try* making a crazy summer pattern into a schedule of normality. The vacations begin to end and you see familiar faces more often than not.

And that's when it hit me. SUMMER IS ALMOST OVER! Oh, the agony...the absolute defeat. The pessimist in me assumes an attitude. Summer isn't over until I say it is! Why, I didn't get to do half of the things I wanted to this summer!

Well, school started yesterday...and there was nothing I could do to stop it. So, I decided to sit in a corner and pout.

.......

....Okay, so I didn't do that.

But I wanted to.

Oh, how I wanted to!

However, despite my absolute reluctance to admit that summer was over, I began to think back to last year. I don't know why I go through this every year. The whole "I wish summer would last forever but when's school gonna start?" thing. I had a great time at school last year! Meeting new friends, learning new things, fighting tooth and nail for a parking spot (that was rightfully MINE!), and staying up until 4am to finish homework!

*sigh*

Webster defines nostalgia as: "A bittersweet longing for things, persons, or situations of the past." I'm still so torn! This week has been tough, but exciting! I'm anxious to see what the outcome is! I'm taking 15 units and working...so we'll see how it goes.

Things I'm really going to miss:

Surfing

Sleeping in

Staying up late

And that's about it

*points up* Oh, look...I made a pyramid. 

Enough with the ADHD.

I miss the time when life was simple. When all you had to worry about was what kind of sandwich mom was making for lunch and who you were going to sit next to in class. Now I'm worrying about financial aid and whether or not I have my fees paid, my classes added, and the correct add codes for each class.

Oh, to be 6 again...